Jayden Michael

The look says it all, this is my mischevious little boy who will be 8 this December. Jayden's life has a deeper meaning to me than any of my children. It's personal but I'll share because it's something to learn from. When I found out I was pregnant again their Father and I were no longer together, long story that shall stay in the past. I was so unsure of what to do and what direction my life was going to go I wasn't sure if I would go through with the pregnancy.

I told no one, I kept it to myself thinking it would go away or work itself out. I was in a bad state but one night I was living at home, 5 months pregnant and my gauldbladder burst. I crawled to my parents room and my Father rushed me to the hospital. On the way there I told him I had something to tell him and before I knew it I blurted it out. He was silent and said we'll talk about it later. I can remember being sedated for the pain and the doctor did an ultrasound. My Dad was the first one to see Jayden and to be told I was due that December.

My family took a day or two to process the situation and we did what we always do, we move forward. I knew that times were about to get challenging but that I had the best support system in the world. I remember that this pregnancy was so easy and relaxing because I made sure of it. When I found out it was a boy I was stumped on a name and the only thing I knew was it had to start with a J. I was at work and me and my two friends, Jill and Keyia, were looking up all the names that begin with a J. Keyia said Jayden and it was like a light bulb, that was it Jayden Michael, after my uncle.

When Jayden was born I he was a laid back happy baby who looked just like me. No one believed how much he resembled me. I swore God did that to spite his Father, I know that's no something God would do but it made me laugh. He kept me busy and still does as he is full of energy and emotions. He is a loving, sensitive, rough and tumble little boy who is afraid of nothing, well most of the time.

As he get's older I watch him try to be like his brother and then fight with his brother, there isn't a dull day in my house. Jayden was my special gift that showed me my strength and courage to do something I wasn't sure I could do.